i shld start waking up earlier. i wanted to get up at seven today and go for a run. haha. guess what happened? i woke up at eight plus and had a morning chat with caroline. HAHA. whats new? okay i am gonna be disciplined. yupp i think thats really what my life needs now. discipline. even if i cant lead a disciplined life forever im sure i can do it for the next month or so? until As are totally absolutely over and i can be as undisciplined as i want. strange how we can be disciplined in some areas and totally slack in others. i think if we can see results immediately the fear makes us have more self-restraint. like if we can see our waist getting bigger with every meal we'll definitely confirm plus chop not eat for the next week or sth. but u cant really see your As when you work now. its not like if i dont finish what i wanted to do today i can see my A dropping to a B. if i can i'll be working my butt of everyday man. oh well. maybe its time to scare myself.
okay key word today is discipline.
but on top of that i think ive been having pretty bad luck this week. maybe fengshui really does lun liu zhuan. well i hope it spins back to my turn soon. i feel like lindsay lohan in just my luck la. my stationary runs away from me. my bus refuses to come whenever im at the bus stop. the only thing im missing is the pouring rain and the not working umbrella. choy. i shld stop cursing myself. if today really rains right. argh. i hope not. sorry to anghong and tsunwang for repelling the 48 ytd and making u all wait so long. haha. and the best is we saw the first 48 and the next bus stop. HAHA. maybe this is what happens when you have really bad luck.
and i have two new toilets now! haha. i never knew how horrible it is to have no toilets until the day both toilets were covered in concrete and we cldnt use them. so we had to use the last toilet which is really more like a laundry area and not a toilet. i was so glad to see a toilet bowl the next day la. haha. well at least its worth it coz i have brand new sparkling toilets now. but kinda miss the old one. haha. maybe thats what humans are like. inertia. and we only treasure toilet bowls when we dont have them. tell me how many of you actually take the toilet bowls in our school for granted. what if they were all those squat toilets? haha.
okay second key word for today is appreciation.
its the same with you. i always think i will be satisfied, even if we never have another day together, because of this day, because its special, because you gave me all i ever wanted. but theres so many special days and they will never be enough for me. maybe thats human too. endless wanting. we'll never be contented. after one, we want another. after two, we want a third. after a third, we want more and more. im sorry i cant be content. but theres one thing i will never want more of. and thats you. one you is really enough to last me the rest of my life. i know its abit early to be saying that but i think that for some things, experiencing it once in your life is already more than what many people can ask for. i think caroline told me that. haha prob being a member of the gac is one of those things. its not everyday that you can find someone you would like to guard (:
let me light up the sky
light it up for you
a star fell from the sky;
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